The salty air surrounded
me. My eyes drank in the oranges and red of the sunrise. A calming rhythmic sound
of the waves crashing into the surf filled my ears. Soft sand tickled my toes.
Every morning of
that vacation, I would take a solo hour-long beach walk at the crack of dawn to
drink in the sights, be with God, and take photos. As I stood in the surf
taking a video of the sunrise and waves, I suddenly felt a hand touch me on my
shoulder. When I looked around, there was no one there.
It was one of
those should of – could of moments in life. I
should have yelled, “Yes, God. What do you need?” I could have gotten down on my
knee in that damp sand and prayed to him. Except I did neither because I didn’t
realize the significance of the moment until it had passed.
You see 10 months
prior to that moment I had lost my sister suddenly and tragically. I struggled
to breath in the months to follow after her death. It was during that mourning
period I had felt as though God had forsaken and forgotten me. Why had he taken
my only sibling to be with him? I often asked myself that question.
On that barrier
island, I was compelled to go to a special church the Sunday prior to feeling
God on that lonely beach. During the service, the pastor pulled out a guitar
and began to belt out “Who am I” by the Casting Crowns. That song had become my
theme song on those solo walks on the beach. I downloaded the song and played it
on repeat.
God wanted me to
know that “I am Yours.” He had not forsaken or forgotten me after Tanya had
died. He needed me to go through those trials and feelings of lost, so that I
could find myself on that beach alone. It was then he would make his presence
known to me.
I wasn’t really alone
on that beach. I had a companion – God. He
was with me the whole time.
Joshua 1:9 Be strong and courageous; do not be frightened or
dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.
Blessings,
Traci









































